My Inner Child - Dear Luna

 Dear Luna,

The memories of childhood are always a mix for people. For some, it brings brilliant rushes of nostalgia, making them wish they could go back to those times. For others, they rather not think about those years.

For me, most of my childhood I enjoy remembering, but there are many memories which i don;t remember and my friends have to remind me. My childhood was amazing, but I was one of those children who came face to face with bullies due to having a speaking problem, and that means one of my memories is remembering the number of times I pretended I wasn't feeling well so I could get out of class when I was in year 4. However, what really helped me take each step at a time during my childhood years, was not only my friends but the stories which I fell in love with, whether they were from books or Disney. 

This is why, one of my top destinations, when Erin and I travelled to Japan was to visit Disneyland, Tokyo. We almost did not do this, as retrieving the tickets was slightly a challenge. For some reason, paying it online just did not work, but we knew we were able to buy these tickets at stores such as 7-11 or familymart, and after some obstacles, we managed to have Disneyland tickets in our hands. 

The day arrived, and the moment I woke up my inner child was reborn once again. I have read something stating that no matter the age you are now, you are still your younger years age. For example, I am twenty-three, but thirteen-year-old me still lives within me, and three-year-old is still thriving inside, and to be honest, I find that rather fascinating. That morning, I changed into ripped jeans, and a black turtle neck with my Winnie The Sarah's top over; I was ready for a fun day where apparently dreams do come true. 

Disneyland, Tokyo was amazing. Is it smaller than the Disney parks in Paris and Orlando, absolutely, but did I care... no. Being back at Disney reminded me of how younger Sarah's eyes used to sparkle when watching Disney movies on video and then on DVD. I remember watching Tinkerbell coming on screen suggesting you could press fast play and skip the adverts. I remember the mix of Peter Pan saying 'Off we go' to Aladdin picking up the lamp. I remember falling in love with the princesses with how they always kept true to themselves and went out, made mistakes, and had adventures. I remember wanting to be like Ariel so much, to explore a place unknown to me, to not be afraid of trying, and to stand up for what she believes.

I know adults laugh at other adults who still enjoy Disney because they believe those movies are for children, but little do they know that those movies truly shaped many of us into whom we are today. Because as I write this blog, stating what Ariel was to me, I realised I am doing something which she did, and that is exploring a place unknown to me. This travel experience has sent me to many countries and there are still a handful of places I will be visiting. Would I still be doing this if I hadn't watched all of those Disney movies, perhaps, but I will never know... what I do know, is that Disney was the push that lead me to become me. 

Going to Disneyland, and being reminded of the type of person I was at the mere age of seven, so hopeful, so full of dreams, makes me know that she would be proud of who I am today, and what I am doing. But I also know one other thing, and that is to not be afraid of trying. Every time I take a step closer to sending work off, the fear of not achieving the dream of being an author makes me stop. But there is one thing that I was reminded about during my day in Disneyland, all of these characters thought they couldn't go out there and achieve what they hoped for, but guess what, they still went out, scared, but they achieved their dreams. And I know for sure, my inner child would not be happy if I don't at least give it a real shot. 

Until next time, Luna ❤️❤️❤️