You'd Never Believe What I Did - Dear Luna

Dear Luna,

You'd never guess what I did. And no, it's not anything crazy like piercing my eyebrow or tongue or dying my hair bright neon. 

No.

To be honest, I am sure many people would read this and think, is that all? I thought it was going to be something a lot my grand. To me, it was something I wouldn't not have believed I would have done a year ago, even a week ago. 

Whilst planning our travelling adventure around Asia, my cousin and I booked some tours to do for a chance to witness the beauty that these countries held. For Malaysia, we booked the Batu Cave and more tour. However, on the day we were meant ago, my cousin came down with something, we believe it was food poisoning, but thankfully she is all good now. It meant I ended up having to go on this tour by myself, and the day prior, we learnt that this tour was a private one, something we did not realise. 

It meant for the next six to seven hours, it was just me and my driver/tour guide. I nearly didn't want to go. But I knew there was nothing I could do, so off I went. I was lucky enough that Ranjeet was a nice man and talkative and did not make me feel uncomfortable one bit. Perhaps we kept on talking because otherwise, the ride would have been silent, but I did ask a few questions. 
As my cousin was not able to join, Ranjeet offered to take pictures as well, and he took loads, most likely more than what my cousin and I would have taken for each other. 

Don't get me wrong, there was a moment whilst we were walking to the waterfall through the forest where I thought, this man could easily do anything he wanted and there is nothing I would be able to do. Something that I know men most likely would never have to think about if they were in my position. But even though I could tell that this man was doing his job, and making sure I was enjoying my tour, and I knew he wouldn't do anything to harm me, there is always that worry. Something which I know many women and non-binary peeps experience. And it did suck that I felt like that because for a second it took away the enjoyment of the day. It took away from me being able to be amazed by nature. 
It's simply not fair that I, and many other people, have to think like that, think about what to do to protect ourselves if something happens when we should be able to enjoy ourselves. And I know, there will be people thinking, will you just shut up, Sarah, you are privileged to be able to witness all of this. 
And to that answer, just because I am privileged in some ways, doesn't mean I am privileged in every way. 

Besides that, going on this tour by myself, seeing the colourful stairs that led to the Batu Caves, dipping my feet into the hot springs (let me tell you, those hot springs were boiling, some men sat all the way in... I don't know how), taught me one thing. It taught me I can do many things alone. 
I was talking to a best friend of mine a few days ago, and I mentioned to her how every time I do something alone, it gives me more confidence and courage that I can do other things alone. Who knows. Maybe next, I will go to a concert by myself. I went on this tour alone, I can do other things with the company of just myself. 

Having that mindset floating within makes me excited for what my twenties will bring. 

Until next time, Luna ❤️❤️❤️